I do not want another baby.
I know I've posted about this before, but it is a truth.
*DISCLAIMER* I fully support and and am completely thrilled for my friends who do want/have more than one child. I in no way think you're crazy or wrong! I only ask the same in return... I have never once told a woman pregnant or trying to be pregnant with a second child that I think she's wrong and then listed my reasons. Sheesh, people.
Don't get me wrong, I love the idea of a squishy widdle baybee and sometimes I do miss having one (and then I snap out of it, shudder, and pray that our method of birth control never fails) ... so I'll just borrow my friend's, and I have plenty of friends getting ready to burst! But honestly, the idea of revisiting the 24/7 morning sickness, sciatica, heartburn, round ligament pain, headaches, fatigue, cramps, swollen feet/face/hands/everything, PUPPs, high blood pressure, tailbone pain and extreme hyper-emotional weirdness makes me cringe. That's not even taking into consideration the labor and all that lovely after baby junk your body goes through.... sore nipples and sore... you get the idea. AND during all that recovery you're not sleeping, you're and emotional wreck, and you have absolutely no clue what you're doing. Oh and if you happen to have a baby like Natalie, you're dealing with a five hour screaming fit starting at precisely 3 p.m. every single day for about four months. Combine all of that with a deployed husband and you've got an equation for an only child.
I know I've mentioned in previous posts that when Natalie was born, Mom moved in with me for two-and-a-half months. OK, that's just not normal. Most women get the hang of it after a few weeks, and grandma goes merrily back to the land of sugar cookies and grandma-ness. Not for poor Beverley, though. I wouldn't let her leave at night... can you imagine how long I'd make her stay if I had two children to deal with? Ha! She would be a permanent resident. Needless to say, she fully supports my decision to bear one child.
I met a woman yesterday who was tall, thin, beautiful and looked energetic and well rested....I also met her 17 month old and her 5 week old. I did sort of envy her, I haven't looked that good since prior to March 2009, I'm still waging war against the remaining 30 lbs of baby pudge I'm carrying around. I'm not one of those women who can glide through pregnancy so seemingly effortlessly. No, if I ever do get pregnant again I'm going to moan the entire time. I've often told my friends that I'd rather be in labor every day for a whole year, than to be pregnant one more day of my life. I'm pretty serious.
Having said all that, I'd do it over and over again for Natalie. Despite my bitter remarks about pregnancy, I was so happy to be carrying a child, and I prayed for her safety everyday. All the while, though, I knew I would never do it again.
I know myself, I know that I'm the best mother I can be to Natalie. And I know that I wouldn't be able to be the best if I had two (or more) children, I know that one or both of them would not get the attention they deserve. I know that about myself, and to be blunt - all the reasons people give me to try and convince me to have another child, in my opinion, stink. So Heather, Sharon, Steph.... we'll stick together to ward off obnoxious only children comments. Corbin, BB and Christopher will be loved and cared for and nurtured just like they would in any family, regardless of size.